`every night has its stars`imma happy girl.
just got back from meeting him.
heh. happy + gerek.
but then i thought if people were to have great feelings for each other,
their hearts will like beat faster or something like that?
sighh, guess different people different effect kan?
i'll just trust him that he feels what he said he feels.
i keep thinking bout negative stuffs;i dont know why.
but i guess that's what happens if u let ur mind wander tk tentu psl.
cheesecake btol.
anyway, moving along.
everyone's having their own good times.
all progressing with their own 'ehem ehem's
cute kan. lmao.
all grinn-y moments.
back to laughing laugh laugh times.
as usual, badot sarcas when we wanna be.
weeeee*loves*
hmm, ICA coming next week and the next. hrp2 can take it luhh.
*prays hard*
then it'll be holidayyyyy! wooots.
i feel like going sheeshaa. hahahaaa. kay random.
da lahh, nk rehat.
takee care krg2.
:)
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`can't stop won't stop, i must be dreaming.`greatt, now i feel like shit. fuck cb knn. *swears so many more*
its not cause im angry at what she said but it's cause i felt guilty
it wasnt supposed to make you feel that way.
pls dont feel like you dont belong.
damn, i promised myself i dont wanna make anyone especially one of my close friends to feel this way cause i've experienced it. and it sucked badly.
fuck lahh, now i've broken that promise to myself.
ohhhhh goddd, i didnt plan to make one of my close friends to cry.
especially not cause of us. damnnnn. knn cb.
ahhhhhhhhhh! *guilty*
i wanna us to be able to sing our favourite songs together again.
the maine, airplanes song.
playing frisbee together.
laughing our ass off at some lil thing.(not only a laughing tool but a really good laughter)
talking bout hot stuff.
signalling for hot stuff.
eye- signalling.
expression reading.
telepathy.
thinking alike, same comments bout some matter.
all of those are like the best times in school that i look forward to.
every single sec, min, day, month, year.
whatever it takes to make our friendship closer. and bond more.
love you like 'tonnes, gazillion bulldozers crash also can't break it'
that's the same as the other two close friends.
sorry okayy babe. for making you feel like that.
that heart- tearing feeling. fuck, i hate that feeling.
really am.
we'll be okayy right ?
pls dont say anything bad.
i feel reallyyyyy guiltyyyyy.
love ya babe. and i care for you. smile for me kayy. <3
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`well, i'm happy, he's happy`i don't know why today was kinda a suay day for us.
us; those close ones. eg xf.
it wasn't our daily high day and not even one loud laughter was heard from us.
i mean, there was but those laughter or smiles didnt reach our eyes.
they said i had a sad face since starting.(really meh?)
probably cause i didnt have the mood to be happy.
it was supposed to be a happy happy day for us but nahhhh.
music blasting in our heads when we had break.
luckily, there was someone where i could turn to.
and he tried making me smile; but failed miserably.
it was sweet of him to be that worried.
awww(*loves)
basically, due to those no mood feelings, marketing project wasnt done.
not even one word typed.
end up, xf wanted to swing away those bad feelings.
well, i did too; so went to the swing area near my place.
swing swing; talk talk till our feelings gradually subside.
finally xf got to meet him & mus.
can't recognise huh, xuef. *grins*
and that somebody pon ade(sape lagi if not my enemy yg tk mkn meat, qam)
cheese. then some stuff happened,
& i got no cheeky smile that he usually give.
:((( sigh. nvm. still got other days.
wanted to throw frisbee then mummy called to go home.
end up, day gone. without any cheeky smile = miss him more.
goshhh, head over heels agaknye. grrrr.
but i like:)
so xf, i had the most fun swinging time with you. swing swing; more info about each other; forgets the feelings= not being sad/moody. i guess its a new way to get rid of our problems or feelings next time. & thanks for agreeing with me bout him:) cheer uppp! <3
linden, dont think bout negative stuffs. jiayooo. push it away, lock it inside some pirate chest and throw the key into somewhere you wont find. try to control that negative feeling that u suddenly have okayy? you know we're here whenever you need our ears/ advice alright? <3
but anyway, i want those laugh till tummyache moments again, SOON! cheer upp kayy. :)
so basically this post is kinda emo, or should i say depressing but what to do kn.
*grins*
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`and if i call your name, will you please stand up`just finished webcamming with him :)))
HOHO, it was funnyy. but comell.
still cant believe that we both lost contact and then now we meet again.
it's true lahh then, kter pon tk tawu what will happen in future.
it's like dejavu all again but a better one(hope soo)
so basically, every single day was 'stay out late' days.
mon, wed frisbeee(tuh confirm lambat)
then tues, thurs and fri lepakks. i think lahh.
frisbee on wed(i think ) was gerek, cause we went to mac's to chill and joke ard.
*hot stuffs* lmao
tues did bsw with xf. thurs study with him. fri kfc with hudaa and riyann.
all gerek.
wootts:D
but however, i usually dread sat sun cause we have this 'gotta finish' pile of hwks every weekend
and noww, add more projects.
wahhh taik siol, so manyyy but sooo lil timeeeeee!
:((
tkp2, can do it. jiayooo.
anyway, i've gotta start thinking bout bsw. so that by wed, we could show teacher or smth.
kay lahh, off to thinking(if nothing distracts me)
heeee.
take careee, people.
:DDD
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'outta my league'every single day was extremeee knock out.
i mean due to my body clock which still havent tune in.
every night confirm sleepy but mls to sleep(got such thing meh?)
sooo at least sleep ard 12 plus plus, wake up sure 6 plus
makkk oiii, penat ke peee.
frisbee's been awesome but byk pressure lahh
(sume pro, kter je yg tk sgt)
and i hate it when the girls get rough, dammnn, really bulldozer sia(cb)
cheeseeecakke btolll!
but i have my gerek kaki-s(or isit kaki gerek-s?) to play frisbee with.
*woootts*
hmmm, actually lah kan, sume okayy cume just sometimes i get this fish look that someone gave, wahhhh irrits ke pe.
but ohh weelllls, its okayyy. tk kesahh.
give me that look all you want, you are sooo welcome.
kayy lahh, wanna off to bedd soon
(my 'soon' is soo gonna be 12 plus)
heee, :o
nightts and sweett dreammss dudes dudettes:))
frisbee tmr:) yay.
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