`some love is not love at all`sometimes overload of emotions isnt that good. there are side effects ofc. feeling high; feeling down; pissed. every single one is tiring. but not the happy pill. the most tiring one is when you dont wanna feel it but it just smacks itself into your mind, heart, soul and body. it isnt something which you can erase from the memory like a camera/lappy. it just sticks there like a leech. something, just something to be reminded of eventho u're happy. it's there eventho u're not thinking bout it. now and then it'll just have this red alert shout out begging you to attend to it. when you do so, ur emotions get jumbled up and then make you feel more sad than angry/happy. things that happens. words that were spoken. might result in unwanted feelings. like jealousy. when you know u're not supposed to be feeling that way but you still have it locked inside your small heart. like doubt, it's there eventho u trust people. you can't control it. well, i can't but i'm trying. it's hard, but i'll do it. for the sake of myself so that i wont be feeling like shit most of the time. :')
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& can't stop, won't stop
